Can the melody of love will be louder than reality?

I saw this title by an author. It gave me some thoughts. Sometimes, there were few times people asked me to help them before.
I thought I still didn't forget these people though. Some were those I like or even treasure as friends. Sometimes I knew most likely these people would keep talking about business. The seriousness of life which set me to thinking these days.
Some people grew through hardships with me before? The unstability of both of us made us left this options never opened at all before. The unstability of the days we met, but we knew the friendships were still there before. Some of us didn't get to meet each others for more than five years.
I think I could have some social problems before. I mean I were locked in my inner self and soul. I didn't try or ignore those around me. I hardly concern or care about or help people much. But after these four years, it turned out better. Probably it was a good friend of mine. We helped each others, unlocking each others locks. Then we moved on. Were the chains still surrounding me? I only have the keys.
I finally knew how it felt being asked to be part of the family or even to know more about each others' family. Memories could be replaced. Memories could be replaced with the face of the loud noise of reality, tickling and telling me to be on track of aging and hope for the increasement of more piggy for retirements. Tricks that people did I could either see or feel. Just that I close one eyes, so the rubber band of the elasity wouldn't break but would be stretchables.
I seriously hope not to be a person who is not at a low profile but neither not a high profile too. But somehow Reality pushes me to think how I wish to be more of a high person, distinguish figure that people appreciated my usefulness, value, worth as a human being. Then of any statuses I could be suitable to. I am a little girl in the eyes of others.
I hope to sort the queries of it myself. Somehow I felt the doors were opened. Were I be right? The movies on the screens that caught my attention. Were that just be superficial? I quote to find more of the beliefs.
I don't wish to add in the time to give another A or B or C routes. I wish to have culture route but due to the culture that I were bought up in. Also to people who hope to groom me to.
Culture route needed me to experiences more, also to be technology savy.
I began the Acc route. However, it seemed that it was just like a primary or fundamental method for most young adults. My anger or displeased could only be vanished through the Mart route for leisure.
The Musx route were due to the pleasure of it could soothes me to sleep.