Can the melody of love will be louder than reality?

I saw this title by an author. It gave me some thoughts. Sometimes, there were few times people asked me to help them before.
I thought I still didn't forget these people though. Some were those I like or even treasure as friends. Sometimes I knew most likely these people would keep talking about business. The seriousness of life which set me to thinking these days.
Some people grew through hardships with me before? The unstability of both of us made us left this options never opened at all before. The unstability of the days we met, but we knew the friendships were still there before. Some of us didn't get to meet each others for more than five years.
I think I could have some social problems before. I mean I were locked in my inner self and soul. I didn't try or ignore those around me. I hardly concern or care about or help people much. But after these four years, it turned out better. Probably it was a good friend of mine. We helped each others, unlocking each others locks. Then we moved on. Were the chains still surrounding me? I only have the keys.
I finally knew how it felt being asked to be part of the family or even to know more about each others' family. Memories could be replaced. Memories could be replaced with the face of the loud noise of reality, tickling and telling me to be on track of aging and hope for the increasement of more piggy for retirements. Tricks that people did I could either see or feel. Just that I close one eyes, so the rubber band of the elasity wouldn't break but would be stretchables.
I seriously hope not to be a person who is not at a low profile but neither not a high profile too. But somehow Reality pushes me to think how I wish to be more of a high person, distinguish figure that people appreciated my usefulness, value, worth as a human being. Then of any statuses I could be suitable to. I am a little girl in the eyes of others.
I hope to sort the queries of it myself. Somehow I felt the doors were opened. Were I be right? The movies on the screens that caught my attention. Were that just be superficial? I quote to find more of the beliefs.
I don't wish to add in the time to give another A or B or C routes. I wish to have culture route but due to the culture that I were bought up in. Also to people who hope to groom me to.
Culture route needed me to experiences more, also to be technology savy.
I began the Acc route. However, it seemed that it was just like a primary or fundamental method for most young adults. My anger or displeased could only be vanished through the Mart route for leisure.
The Musx route were due to the pleasure of it could soothes me to sleep.

Displeased with some systems

I actually how what were the methods could be use to be able to have a fair deal between employers and employees shares.

Two Encounters
1. Service Line: I am new to issuing some gift toys which stated that once you bought $12 items, one could give one small gift. If some people bought about $65, should one give one or just five items.
2. Yes I just feel that certain policies in the industries of the stuffs you did, one could actually be able to be criticise by those customers. Supposedly, on top of that no matter whatever the explainations also shows not your professionalism. No matter what, did the customers really mark their words.I actually know how two sided people were.  The order form did not issue out though. Hope I can work in a pleasant environment though.Trying to know more about being neat so  I wish I could generate more incomes with skills and brains. One couldn't even earn the amount one desire, one got involve in such uneasy case.
Online Learnings for schools
1. Things that got to be addressed. Hope it will faster the system.Doesn't evenings lessons don't have it.

Making my way to see some clothing materials :P

I hope to do some shopping with clothes. Seriously I don't or choose not to make any choices. I am still discovering myself though.No point for me to keep attending flea markets though.Should I or Should I not? I hope to train up to be good in numbers, statistics.

I also hope to go camps? Should I or not? Don't wish to be choosy but just seems to be like that. I am waiting for news to come up.I see floor plans I hope to make for placements of stuffs.

What should I see on? Seriously what's up with young couples nowadays? Own issues just have to settle on each others own. What's the matter with involving outsiders?

Every day is a buzy day.

Opportunities

I found out the webistes or news such that the getai singer will always be at. Today it will be at blk 2, hougang avenue. Do I always have to be a No-Name person like that? Even a child could do better than me. I mean more cultivated in the learnings on the stage and exposed to the lifestyles of getai. it is not saying such that. Probably it is about the exposures. I would hope to do about the lifestyles that could be more improvements.

I got rejection from the army selections. I dislike agruements. Still feel hope to do sufficient but can get more inputs and also more opportunities. Or probably opportunities came but due to habitis I didn't capture it fast. Now I got to know which opportunities I got to hold first while some can put later.

student peace lecture: Questions and Answers Sessions

Most of the learning is through online e-learning during these days. Everything is based on problem solving or through projects learning. Some still will prefer theoritical based learning. I think somepeople already give their views on such.
Listening is learning. Talking is sharing. on what purpose is education cultivated? On 5 directed learning methods can be emphasised such as physical, moral, social......
Everyone have their own learning paths, such that some are fast learners, while some are fast learners. Every teachers try to seek to an average method of learning. Some who are fast learners will then do more of the self-directed learnings.
Some people who feel they are more well-educated and could be equipped with conferencing to learn about their lectures and need to pay to fly overseas.
Well, some full-time curriculum studies could actually be able to given the online e-learning. While some evening classes could not be given the online e-learning studies.

Well, What could have been done? It will need a few years time to be able have the systems carried out? Don't they have the resources? If the buildings of the schools can be well-equipped with facilities for the day-time.

I just feel that it seems white lies as some people agree but mentioned they could not make it to the seminar or an event.

Well, every place or every organisations have their own hierachy ranks. Only when they have the available time, like when there is an event up. Probably some time could be spare up just on that day. Thats how packed the lifestyles of leaders of an organisations, be it a religion leader.

I feel like accompanied a friend to go to the leisure activites. Well, Am I prepared at the most to try to get my momentum up and easier for my capturing of more items into my head. I need more self-directed learning.

Know your legal writes( Hope to write more about these issues)

Ministry of Laws
http://www.mlaw.gov.sg/about-us/contact-us.html
Claims Small Rights
https://app.subcourts.gov.sg/sct/page.aspx?pageid=8585
ACRA Government Accounting Corporate Regulations Authority
NSP Community Centre
Push Carts Settings Ups

I shall discover them and get myself be equipped with resources and knowledges. These employers just don't give the whole sum. So i got to tell them or know them the amount well and tell them off. I am unpissed. Take more responsibility up and do well.

My Own Reseaech on Different Organisations

Fashion Bloggers
http://bongqiuqiu.blogspot.sg/

How to create a professional logo?
http://www.webdesignerdepot.com/2009/02/how-to-create-a-professional-logo/

Signature and a scanned copy of his drawings before selling it to the customer

 protection of the drawings

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Art_theft

http://www.ipos.gov.sg/AboutIP/TypesofIPWhatisIntellectualProperty.aspx

Intellectual Property (IP) commonly refers to creations of the human mind. Examples are a piece of creative work (e.g. a painting), or a technical solution to a problem that is documented. Types of IP include patents, trade marks, industrial designs, trade secrets and confidential information, plant varieties, layout-designs of integrated circuits, geographical indications and copyright.

http://www.computerworld.com/s/article/9177113/Hackers_can_delete_Facebook_friends_thanks_to_flaw

Jewellery Design Ideas Makings
https://www.facebook.com/BIO.jewellery/posts/10152811506590574

Portrait Drawings of Caricature
http://sgcaricature.blogspot.sg/

http://www.pictureworks.com.sg/

Insurances to read up
http://www.lia.org.sg/consumers/healthcare_financing 

http://mycpf.cpf.gov.sg/Members/Gen-Info/Sch-Svc/Asset_Enhancement.htm

Information on Dependent's Protection Scheme :
It is a term-life insurance that provides a coverage of $46,000 until you turn 60 years old. Premiums of $36 yearly (for 34 years old & below) will be deducted from your CPF Ordinary Account.  

Find out more about investments, right. You can read out more about the CPF investment scheme on the different types of investment vehicles (i.e. insurance, unit trusts, fixed deposits, bonds, shares, property and gold): 

http://www.aware.org.sg/ati/wsh-site/7-legal-rights/

Nick Vujicic 力克·胡哲：我和世界不一樣 (中英字幕）

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_leyYopIzE4&feature=related

SGI Read Up
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y3xOf-jXJSY&feature=youtu.be

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/facebook-users-low-self-esteem-may-driving-people-160059339.html

3rd CVA Professional Shortlist: PR2017 When We Were Once Young

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysfwNFIsL5o&feature=related

Ideas on doing videos.

http://www.ntuclearninghub.com/adobe-certified-associate-visual-communication-using-photoshop-cs-4

Ministry of national development

http://limitedtimeopportunity.com/SG/

 

Uneasiness or worriness

Well, I wonder that nowadays try not to even give their employers' letters.So some jobs are like that. Well, I couldn't depend on relate on such incidents anymore.I heard people mention that it is a trend.

Technologies, I hope to know you.So even writings could really carry some weight itself. I wish to understand the online marketing to work.I meant to have my images to be re-packages.

The society that I saw people would rather to be alone than to blend into the crowds. Maybe they have once tried to blend in but weren't really being accepted. Some don't blend in due to their statuses or their ability to have a conversation carry out.

Photos doesnt' mean how many friends you actually have meet up. Even it is in a group.

The society paces that I have not yet being able to chase after in terms of the economy, the current peers that had set up their own family or even have children. Seeing the children getting some snacks from me, I were happy with their reactions though. The though of planning for my future children came to me.I hope to know how to be able to let my children be proud of me.If only some skills could be passed from one generations to another.I think playing computer games could be a skill too. Treat it as an example.

These words really slapped me hard on the faces, especially these few years.
I tried to be helpful but people think or take my helpfulness be granted. Some even hope that I could do some reports for the person. No one to even really relay or trust on.Does only one have power, social statuses, or even financially well off, then the person's who voices out actually carried some weights.

Cakes

Well, I saw many kinds of cakes.I see many layers of cakes which have toppings like vanilla, chocolates. I also feel that avocado could be made into cakes. Thats was interesting. So did mashmallow cakes with chocolates or others types of flavouring

I have been trying to understand if the desserts made could be also caters to makings of the cakes.

Oh I would be attending the food cooking classes on christmas or even christmas eve.

How to handle relationships well?

http://wealthnlove.com/2013/11/10/how-i-made-it-with-my-fiance/
1) Consistently Communicate (Face to Face) 

How I wish such that any issues can be resolved in a good endings with any partings. I guess I were not of any position to voice out. 
Should I sort out? I see many people have wedding bells around the corners.
Somehow I were upset about the thoughts of being hurried into a relationship or even marriages.
There isn't any certainty afterall. So I have no a position to say or not given my current situations? Get marry though maybe your instincts told you were not right at this timings. Or would it better once you actually be more well off with the independence in making any decisions and also to be financially independent. Whatever places I would like to go, I could actually have the ability to do what I like. I knew I were given freedom most of the times. I wish need to be tied down, but still hope to know to have different ends meet. Also is age gap an issue? Be it having someone's older or even younger than you by yourself.
Some people communicates with a big fight then they break off.
While Some just leave the big fight and walk off.
Does communicating just with the social medias but without seeing each others faces and hearing each other tone of voices will help to strengthen the bonds. I wondered.
What's a woman role? I felt after several seminars I thought such that a women should be a manager of her own finances. Even without anyone by her side, she still have her own resources. So she wouldn't have to see people faces and live her life. She wouldn't hope to be control such that every attire she wore she would be control. Or every meet up with people have to report up. She wouldn't hope that the timings to reach back her home would have to suit to the person. Is freedom too much spoilt me of not being too disciplined and to be on the competitives mindsets?

A woman got to play a part of an educator too. I saw people I know also hope to be a good father or a good mother. The person read up on role to be a good parent.

A woman got to be a good teacher to oneself, to the young ones she knows.

A woman still have to play a role of a mediator if either side of in-laws are having different arguements.

A woman still have to be a role of a lover, to understand her partner's moods strings. Even if the woman was displeased, should she keep to herself, run away or even confront? 

Would confronting carry so weight to her stands? Given that men always have their says?

A woman with a child have to care about her child's growth and nurture the child to a fine person. Will being too hursh to the child? The child will learn or the child would rebel.

If a woman don't scold or punish or give penalty to the child, will the child still be obedient and do what the child should have do?

A child should be educate in the finance knowledge since young. So that a child could manage the finances well. Like the child should not have suffered and burn its hands off.

I have heard that a 5 years old kid already knew the importances of finances through reading the newspapers. A 5 years old kid could actually ask his parents to buy a house for him as he knew the property itself costs a big bucks.

Through listening to the story, it really bothers me as I don't know what I could offer my children and let them be proud of me. Or to even offer for my ageing parents too. Really strike me to the core.

Given that I grew up being some sort of being spoilt. Whatever I hope for to learn, I would be granted most of the times. Time had past for me to give it a deep thought.

 2) Listen, and Listen More 
Yeah, I am listening these days. Sit down and observing people. Cause too much of my words I wanted to achieve have yet to come true yet. 

3) Consistently Put in Effort 
Should one put efforts to actually create festival, anniversary, birthdays reminders. Also should one have to prepare meal and wait for the other person to be back.

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4) Show Appreciation for Each Other 
Does gifts serve as an appreciations?Or through just notes do?

5) Embrace the Fights 
Fights with quarrels ends up with tears what I don't like at all.
Fights in silence is I hated the most too.
Fights and part suddenly is what I don't like.


6) Respect the Differences  

What's the differences should one foresee? I mean some things are just a differences?Some issues that one should be able to be make mute about. Is it a respect? Or just to smoke things off.

7) Never Sleep over your Problems 
Some couples have issues but they just let it pass without settling it. It shows that no divorced but separations?

 8) Never Make Major Decisions when Upset
Whats like to being with a person for maybe 10 years but ended up in the divorces state?
Is it the freshness of the person had gone off or just that being replaced by someone more fashionable, more financially well off?
Hopefully the fights over the children wouldn't occur?

Children are the cause of any decisions.
Or to be able to understand such that some people put up with it and to endure till the children are big enough and they seperate or divorced.
9) Don’t Forget the Big Picture  
One should embrace the person's strength more than others stuffs.


 10) Don’t Aim to Win an Argument 
Winning definitely doesn't help.A guy should do household chores too. These stuffs should be equally divided.

Penny of thoughts

What has the schooling educations interfered with my own educations? Student Peace Lecture 2013?

This topics sounds interesting which I hope to explore on my own? How could I actually work smart and put my energy and resources to the right places. Has things get out of hand on my side? Some matters,which I need to know and decide? My heads were filled with many stuffs. I wanted to actually to place them at the right place with the right timings.I got the capacity for my own enlightements. We continue to evolve around for expandsions. By Herbie Hancock

Year End Surprises
2013
Wow I were amazed at the touch of the flute and several instruments I touched on. I could make some noises from the flute itself. Well done, Keep it up to make sure I could imagine those things that I could wish it would come true.

Let me meet more people at these countries which were here.Even if it was just a few encounters.Let me read up more on my own.Before conquering matters here, I would need time to prepare my destinations at a new foreign places like Australia, New York or London, a culture where arts and musics were to work only or just study? Or Should I explore to Asian Countries, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Japan or Korean? I must make myself believe in the idea of believing. Let it be three years plan from now onwards. Probably a few years to travel outside of here,overseas. Though I feel that I have gained lots of freedom. Still probably there were culture restraints or even things I would want to be bold in trying some stuffs. Well, Is that a dream to be keep, or to be store up to fulfill. The thoughts came caught from my seniors who gave me this ideas.Some ideas just pop up. Were it work? Should I say it out a not :P Well, I havent really feel like settling down for sure. Not alone for future marriage plans, children or something. Though several topics of such popped up.

Who could appreciate the stuffs I hope to do for acknowledgements, the stuffs to bring me to somewhere I hope I would have sharpen my skills and my abilities.

Conserving energy seems to be right at the moment or not when it is near to chinese new year?

So happenings new like riots in little Indias. Thats so happenings.

Fried Rice and Porride Cooking Tips

Well I really learned survival skills on my own. Yeah So I could prepare myself even if I were to go overseas one day in future for studies.

Fried Rice

1. Meatballs
2. Cheese Hotdogs
3. Nuggets /Seaweeds
4. 2 Eggs
5. Minced pork (Have to preserve it till its coldness after you took out from the refrigerators)                                                                    7. Crabmeats
8. Some fried onions
9. (Should I add more colours to it? Carrots)
10. Garlics

Porridge

1. The only thing I add is the Dibungkus oleh (Small silver fishes)
2. Well I hope I could put some chicken essences or even the korean brand essences into the porridges.

Well, I feel like doing the salmon and unagi fishes.

2014 Ndp Bags Design

Hey It is another happenings assignments for myself. I just hope to stay put and do some daily designings. I have been joining so many events continuously. Leave me more time for myself year ends. What have I been doing lately? Let me be with myself and my own education only.

I am engrossed into my own projects:Music Compositions

 

 

 

These are some of my reviews for the inspirations I get to create for music lyrics compositions.I am staying put here to jot down my thoughts. The closing dates are 18 dec 2013. What a major date on that day for two happenings events.

 http://www.xqrj.com/

姑蘇行

姑苏行

编辑

《姑苏行》是笛子演奏家、作曲家江先谓于1962年创作的一首笛子曲，是一首由深受广大人民群众喜受的竹笛经典名曲。曲名为游览苏州（古称姑苏）之意，全曲表现了古城苏州的秀丽风光和人们游览时的愉悦心情。乐曲旋律优美亲切，风格典雅舒泰，节奏轻松明快，结构简练完整，是南派曲笛的代表性乐曲之一。^[1]

姑苏行是江先谓先生在1962年创作的，渲染出如画般秀丽的苏州园林美景。一方面，新中国成立后，人民真正翻身作主 人，因此，整个国家在各个领域都沉静在建设社会主义的热情中。在文艺北方音乐羽万方数据上的反应是创作出反映新中国新气象的，积极向上的作品。作者把这种 美好的愿望投射到作品中去是很自然地表达。另一方面，当时正处于三年自然灾害的时候。中国人越是在苦难的时候越不会被打垮，也越是需要乐观精神。江先渭先 生穷苦人出生，苦难的经历告诉他，必须坚强、乐观面对新生活。同时，他对新生的中国充满希望。正是这样的情怀催生了这首乐曲。^[2]

曲作者说，《姑苏行》的诞生，共有五大因素催成：一是旋律因素，他无意间得到一段昆曲牌的引子，整天拿它来练气，竞越练越有味；二是生活因素，江老经常到苏州，对苏州园林情有独钟；三是组织因素，团里要求每个演奏员必须要创作自己的曲目到北京会演；四是灵感因素，江老在一次午睡时，突然灵感降临，一下就构思完成了《姑苏行》的框架；五是战友因素，《姑苏行》创作完成后，曲名并练时乐团战友有的说叫《苏州乐》，有的说叫个吹长号的广州籍演奏员（根据回忆名为吕爵文）提出叫《姑苏行》，画龙点睛便一锤定音。<sup>[3]

 http://baike.baidu.com/view/48538.htm</sup>

News Articles

I have been collecting news and articles. Yeah I got this thought that I hope to be able to overseas and take nice scenery photographs and understand the cultures. I wanted to know if any of the jobs I were holding could lead me there, to train me there to interact with different cultures of people. I were thinking there were opportunities lying ahead, to catch hold of a job for the next few years or even a pet that I know of it. Or probably those jobs I didn't quit I still could go back. If not I got to search again. I shall wait. I also don't wish people to wait. I wish too to just finish my stuffs and can go off. Then I wouldn't need to handle human relationships. If not there were too many stuffs I exposed to. I got human relationships need to handle.
I am giving myself space to reorganized my thoughts and my spaces, so certain activites I wouldn't go though I knew it would help in certain ways.

Self-Coaching

 

I coach myself to understand my brain and me.

1. My emotional well-beings and the contradicting things one will do if physical pain occurs.
2.  I want to take a step backwards. Then I can go all the way.
3.  I hope to be able to accept deadlines in the near future.
4.  What could I do? How should I be trained in it? 6 months of trainings? Should I take up more or others? Or continue the tasks at hands first?
5. I already had the concepts of my name with my logos. What's the next step I could do with?
6. I have done several concepts of drawings for custom made clothes though.
7. Nowadays, the computer and my hobbies are my best friends. These are the most reliable tools :P
8.  I care for someone sometimes more than I do. Now I have to care about things I can do.
9. I hope to have videos of my own doing some stuffs.

Beauty

http://inwithskin.com/spf-vs-pa-sun-protection

Food for thoughts

Ingredients:
1. Eggs
2. Ginger
3. Chilli
4. Cabbages and carrots mixed with prepared fried onions

Ingredients
1. Some Seaweed Meat
2. Nuggets

Ingredients:
Salmon mixed with mushrooms and ate with buns could be useful.
I just wish to know about smashed salmon and mushrooms rolled into a sushi seaweed form
will be nice :P

Soups with some green celery and duck breast meat /Avocado Deserts

I drank my family's soups that were really made me feel the warmth.
Ingredients:
1 Bag of Celery $1.50
1 Tomatoe $1
2 Potatoes $1
1 Onion /2 $1
Rice:$4.80

It is a simple meal. It is shared with three people.
The celery with the potatoes served in a small bowl of rice keeps my heart really full. It exists in my throat. I wonder if duck breast meat put in were considered strong? Were it even be great if carrots or corns or even turkeys mixed with bacons were mixed with the soups. I think I try the taste before.. Yeah, it reminds me of a friend though. Suddenly I just feel that should I move another step closer to understand his intelligence findings more? The person did prepare his own dishes before.
Now, Everyone is unique.

The Avocadoes blended into a pudding desserts made me really feel so sweet in my tongue. Don't be mistaken, I actually meant they added some sugar syrup which I tasted and feel so SWEET.

Wow, Avocadoes could mix with durians or even ice-cream for desserts.  I have not yet experienced with Avocadoes and Mangoes pudding.Apple and carrot juice. wolfberries mixed with tea? Could it be chrysanthemum tea?

Hmm... I can put my trust in my tastebuds and food. Oh... Yummy It is in the middle of mid-night, just still feel awake.

2013

It seems to be coming till the end of this year. It was an experiences more on sales jobs and events. Also I took part in a few competition to gain experiences. I have not do much on preparations for the UOB painting competition. I thought my friend is also on my side going to compete too. We shall wait till the next year.

I have tried doing things I have never try yet, going to several places with different kinds of people. Will we ever meet again? The feelings I wanted to know if you will sincere to be my friend or just because you wish to get certain stuffs from me? I just wish to know certain things too. Can't you also do the same as I did for you. Were it fair, even you were away from the pacific ocean. I need a breath here with my life while you were gone. I await your good news on your preparations. It was an eye-opening experiences. I grew my guts to try things or meet or talk to people who were not of the same social statuses as me. After all, We were still human beings. Though there were temporaily there to guide me the most thrice. Probably I were one more of the emotional creatures than most others. That's why I were now the way I were today. Now, I hardened my feelings already cause of all these happening stuffs in me. That kind of envy and jealousy should be put into a driven force. I got to groom myself up. The society only gave more opportunity those who were more pretty or handsome? If I would have more an outstanding characters and even more charismatics. I wish I could have more entrepreneurers spirits and plannings.

 These three years, I would be fully driven into my own personal growth and the career paths. I would put aside of relationships. Then I could meet up with new people. This is a promise I make to myself.

I had different mixed feelings towards opposite genders and girl crush, lebsians and gays.

I quote certain understandings from the magazines. Still I did have my own reflections. Also there were friendships too. Maybe I were in my own imaginery world again.

1. Platonic Love
It is pure, friendly and a reflection of the innocence we had in our childhood. If one remember missing a friend, that was probably your first experience with platonic. Maybe it was a time in my primary school days. Hmmm, we still bump into one another.

2. Crushes
Your first crush is one you will remember always because it is confusing yet oh-so-sweet. One laid one's eyes on the person. Probably we each others for culture exchanges.

3. Unrequited Love: The most dreaded of all the loves. You feel for someone and it hurts like crazy knowing they will never like you back. You knew it was afterall a fairytale . They will never like you back due to social statuses.

4. Obsessive Love
If you feel helpless, lonely, are clinging to your partner, chances of this obsessive love will sooner or later to be kicked. Sorry, girl there is no happy ending ending.

5. Selfish Love
Ever dated someone for a personal gain? If you have, you can cross "selfish love" off your list. Hmm. I realized or encountered a few people were like that? Were I fall into the traps?

6. AWWWW Love
It is the heart- melting cuteness puppy that makes you go"Awww". This is the most spontaneous and easiest one to forget. You feel an overwhelming surge of love for someone but not the need to have it. I guess it is that kind of young ladies chasing after fans and idols.

7. Girl Crushes
You're happy to see a friend of the same sex. You are both perfectly straight. Some people get mushy while some don't. It is called a girl crush or lust bug. It is more of awe and admiration.

8. Lust
The mere thought of this person gets you hot and bothered. It was just a sexual attraction, with nothing much.

9. Romantic Love
This is the stuff poets write sonnets about and the inspiration for many love songs. It's sappiness at its best. You feel butterflies in your tummy, everything is beautiful and you are constantly happy all the time.

10. Unconditional Love
This is the most difficult of love to experience. You care for someone than yourself and you are willing to go to the ends of the earth for him. This kind of love requires a huge leap of faith. But with a bit of trust, good communication and realistic hope, you might just go for experience that fairy tales are really made of! I think there were times when friends do that for me.

Movies to watch

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2032557/

Photography Studios Shoot /Responsibilities Thoughts

I am bringing people along for the photography shoots. I hope to gather six people to go together, six followers. I called up two people. However, I didn't heard much of the responses. I had two tickets to go to for the concerts in November. Hope I could ask people out too.

Should I help that person a not, a person neglected by his family members. He got to live with the elderly person. How long is the person staying there? He couldn't trouble the person.

How cruel is the reality if one is neglected by own family members? Is it that if one person is not of a helping hand to the family, one got to be forsake by the whole family members. Even if one person is asked to be accepted by another family or even adopted by others. Even if the person have a shelter, the person just have to do all the house chores and take care of the person who adpoted the person's to the house. Then does the person have to go to three different places for people to adopt them. :p The person have to undergo ten years living together with the housholds. I understand that even sibilings love their own children rather than be good to their own sibilings. A lover is even greater than the parents, or even the sibilings. I felt sorry to understand in the society people who are climbing up will try all their best to climb up to the ladder.

When they reached the high ranking levels, they will forsake everything related to them, even to the extend to disown their own realitives members if their realitives were not of any help. Thats how practical reality is, all caring about one's own survival. Once, some people have the ability to move out from their own's country, they could just neglected their family members, even to the extend to be able to visit them at their last moments. Is that how life should be? Or I should say? What kind of life should one lead? Who will be the responsibility to take care of my parents in future? Do I have?

People who asked to borrow books from me :p I only can borrow them one book and one time only. People who asked me and ordered me to meet someone who I had not meet. Sometimes I wanted to know how much I got to help them. When deeply, I felt that I haven't so. I also have not enough time to revise my stuffs, my handouts.

I wanted to belong to a click, but how should I able to :P I mean I hope to know and understand? I went to the orchestras and the all the people who are working in adults are in a click and another is a click that had teenagers. However, it doesn't really matter anymore. I were so used to mixing with different people from different environments. I like to work with Big Sisters, Aunties. Cause they open my mindsets.

Thats why I knew that I got to find a way to mingle around? Lets show the dance skills :P I did what I can to entertain myself.

Another Self-Reflections

I actually heard stories from strangers which I met? does a relationship between one another could be mutual? This lady told me her experiences with her girl friend. Ladies towards ladies could be mutual but not dominate, whereas guys towards ladies could be dominate? Does a relationship had to be one go tot control another's person.I heard Interesting life stories from guys bikers and ladies bikers. Today the meet up with 4 different groups of friends were interesting. Each different clicks gave me a different views of lifes about lesbians, gays, bi sexual change.
I just want my own time for my own readings. I actually wanted to bake cookies or some stuffs. There was a misplanning. I hope to go out with ccertain people less frequently. However, situations couldn't allow me not to contact several people.
I should stop focusing on how others should be treating me or others, be more appreciative that I mix with certain clicks which I never think I would be involved with. Be more appreciative towards those who care about me, I would be happier. Do I accept invitation from everyone? Just that people don't accept my invitation doesn't make that untrustworthy. Everyone have a choice to accept or a not, just that I have a choice to accept or reject others[ invitations. No one is obliged to be our friend. Friendship has to be built on trust, concern and acceptance.

My thoughts

I were blessed such that I could actually go to two different places to learning dancing. I mean I did some movements that I don't expected I could do. The guy instructor praised me for being able to continue. I feel good as I do stuffs I haven't try before yet. I wished I could have enough of abundant more. However I felt I got to feel more appreciative for people.
I learnt one lessons of broadway jazz dances, also another pop dances from jolin. I wished to practice and enhance the movements. I wished to join the clubs. The Spa and Sauna actually deoxidents my body. I have to go out after 15 minutes.
After a few months, I came to realize the truth and reality. I got to let go totally, just like how my friend did.
I had been finding events to educate myself with topics regards to health, like the health promotion board :P I need to educate myself with knowledges.
I wished to work on my memory skills. Also, When i see people could take cabs after their work or even after their lessons, I felt that I were given too much freedom that I could feel aimlessly at times. There were times some of my guy friends couldn't stay till 5am.
I felt grateful after a social networking session, people could hope to ask me out and have a small sharings of the person's views. Am blessed with the new findings I could do. Though asking old friends seem not to be that easy, then I could make new friends and ask them out. I wished to look out for happenings events so that I could be in the trends or have conversations to speak to, and also to be able to enhance my senses of design skills and my good eyesights for stuffs.

Oishii-experience.com

Hey It is the Japanese Food Fare Seasons. Someone told me that I would be going for events if I caught of any. I worked before in the Japanese Restaurants. Could I go there Oishii experience? Yeah I were trying to have some times for self-improvements now. I liked to read up on topics related to food stuffs. I were blinded by external factors too often.
 I like Japanese stuffs. I could say that I were very curious about new things. I were trying to understand characters from the animation festivals. Still now, I were more curious about accounts stuffs. I wish for more luxury lifestyles. To learn the different languages like Korean, Japanese, Malays, so I could go overseas and travel, San Francisco CA, United States. I also hope to stay at one of the country, Japan or even Korea.
Could I plan to do that and not just dream only. One of my teacher actually told me that he knew people from overseas. Wow, If I could plan and go there and study that would be good. I could learn about different cultures. Is London an art hub or America? Cause I got to handle my life properly.
Now, It was back to my readings. Read more and you can get your own answers. What's the point of keep meeting people if you don't have substances to share? Now I could understand the facts about agreements between friends could be broken that easily. Hmm...... Never mind, just move on.
 Do you think I would be swayed by your rejections and neglections. Get my facts and my thoughts right. I have been reading a file that tells me about computer stuffs. I could be on my own, doing things I like.
I never encountered such a highly educated person before, double PHD. We just know that everything still can be done if you are very determined. I admired his spirits of researching 14 hours in his lab. His humanity spirits really let me feel so ashamed about myself. Probably, I had to be awaken and not to live in my own world.

My Ideals and Feelings

Once again, I went to visit some getai.Hoping I could enjoy some music from the chinese and dialects. However, I didn't realise that the whole shows have been postponed to the next two days. I felt disappointed. I just wish to be better in my social skills, and not live in my own world. I wish to be more concerned about people.Hope to develop on my current hobbies and make new friends along the way.
Someone advised me that I should go to new environments, different places.

It was a silly thought that I would love to explore places like gay clubs and lesbian clubs. Probably, I were trying to understand people.

I would be reading up widely for fashion stuffs these days. I think someone gave me hope that she could hand made her clothes, pants and skirts. I wish to learn such skills too. There were skirts I like and I wore them. I took and showed the designs to a tailor. There were supplies of textiles of clothes we bought in the beginning of the year. I hope to have different sides of my personalities with different styles of outfits. I felt a great feelings to show drawings and ideas to one lady and a few of my others friends.

I do wished to have finance knowledges, like accountings and even forex. 

It gave me courages to face back some past assignments which had given me for certian times. Logos design and namecards too.

My feelings are in a mess. Damn. I just feel that guys could not be trusted after all.I got a feelings I were a fool most of the times.Never mind, I would treat it as a lesson learn. I had myself to blame.Never trust anyone easily.I just feel they don't be bother with me and care about me.Give me at least three years, I would want to put concentration on myself and not on others, or even guys. I got really disappointed from last year till now.

It would be a good acknowledge to myself I couldn't handle relationships well. Then I should focused on businesses plans, events, and ideas.The excitemnents of earnings enough and reaching up to my goals let me regain my spirits once again.Though I were still unsure the greatness and beneficial results I could see.I should feel gratitudes to these three people. One of them still remember me as his friend. I realised I do have distant friends I should keep in contact with often. I am glad I gave him hope despite his own personal struggles. I saw people doing surveys. I wished to know about the markets to do flea markets.

 Also I would be looking forward to be in the classroom with friends at a music school, lee wei song.Probably I hope to observe myself to relax and be in a dancing environments, vocals singings and keyboards playings. I would find people who enjoys the presence me and my accompanies.

I were more concerned about food, multivitamins, vitamins B and black soya bean.I have been collecting articles and receipts on food.

Another thought

看得懂,看得,遮挡,暗示,

演示

因为一但没有了利用价值，全部努力都会被遗忘。
现实生活中，还是现实点。
百面具人看得多，
生活反而虚假，也特别的厌倦。
恶心,会成为第二个 。。
好人难做
只要有事情, 有乐趣...找你,找你



有时在街上走走看看，对着内心坦诚，反省反省。。。
你对这个人是纯粹的友谊，一起分享喜悦或悲伤，还是只是一位利用工具（大道利益或金钱）而已？？？

自私还是还是切磋的意思: (All is trying to get hold of some of the curiosity /the informations, their queries to their own paths?) Are they mainly out of their concerns?

I rather get hurt by my enemies rather than my closest friends?which I think I feel it?The people you try to help but in the end hurts you that bad.I am not afraid of being alone most of the time, but I were afraid of three meals that cannot be handle well.Dreaming of lifestyles that I long for.

还是觉得惭愧吧。。。
因为傻瓜不傻，它们也只是单纯而已。。。

Origamis Making

I feel that anger or anxious that transformed into some useful energies would be great.While waiting for someone, I am quite a little annoyed by myself and the person. I try to compromise between these people. I am the middle person afterall. At least, I did somethings meaningful. I learnt from some lessons,move forward to look for more people to be in my life.Seriously I couldn't sleep at this hours.Phone is not working that well. I wish to read up more on stuffs, E-commerces, internet and stuffs.
I saw some boxes, some of the animals creatures being made.This is really gives me happiness. The illusions of moving objects like the boxes. The tick toppings of the toys objects. The Domino effects that people apply in the casinoes.I wish to be out of the rat races, don't wish to be always falling behind or apart.
Lets rock the world!!! Enough of all the guilt, the shame, the anxious, the jealously, the unstopping feelings inside me, the left behind. Though I knew how people works or even people who like to pull you down from reaching there.
I wished to attended my physical exams this October to come. Hope to have some teaching experiences. I wished to be more having the trying spirits.  
I have tried to look for solutions, probably it is in me. I am like the events organisers. I would marked the date of 3 November 2013 12.30am to 12.00pm. Nike we run SG 2013.
I am the one who asked people out. It is really trying my patiences.I would give time to go into the society to experiences the life :P

Follow the plan, follow the system,

It is agian reality just slaps on my face. All these days or months I have been with these people, once their HR have been up, I try to contact any of them, it seems uncontactable. I wish to contact those people, ask them out, it seems they are nowhere to be found. However, It could be a bad sign or even a tell tale signs of human behaviours. Those people in my phone lists, they tried to assure that there will be a meetups. It had been the past one year, Since I last saw that few people. I choose not be on any others sides for the moments. It actually give me space to grow on my pace. Everytime, I would actually be a resourceful person, I knew I could. From places I went for social networking or to build my roads. From Orchestras, to exercise trainings, martial arts, toasmasters, BNI, 4PM, bands. i would build my energies on my achievements and my interests aand my own projects. Be more patiences. I still have places I wish to go though. I would build on my dreams rather than on people. If the people are along the way, then we shall be part of our journeys. I came to places just to seek for companionships or to see if people can be a team with me or I could be in their teams. Team spirits are stronger than any forms. Too much sorrows, heartaches I felt. Even if you laugh the loudest, it would be be crying inside. Came to the question on building long term friendships, common goal, common dream? Are friendships and business partners build just because you are on the good days and happy hours? If they are bad terms, would we be kenna bad-mouth. Actually i should not have demands on people, outsiders. When in a family or with relatives, I already seen that those who are blood-related have already gives you a black face, or choose to be in their silent mood with you. Some already foresake you.

Successful people will only tell me to replicate simple things. And it's true. Can we really withstand with the rich people? Follow the plan, follow the system. I knew I had not been following the plans and systems, thats why I ended up like that. Have I let people mistrust me due to my neligiences? I feel I got to handle myself well enough. Come to think of that, are we comrades or sisterhoods or even brotherhoods when we are in the same religions. Only those have done well, then they have more responsibilities. You knew me well enough, there lies my hurts. Those regimentation one have to follow. I got to learn to be more obedient. I wish to have more buddies that can be there. Afterall, I don't have the wealth yet. I am cultivating my mind, my body and my spirits. 

I knew some people had try to be with me, by my side, always to guide me. Despite it is not the person's wish to actually be there, the person had try to rush down to present some stuffs to me. I knew the person is not interested in the activity. The person might be involved in others activities, or others programmes the person wanted to earn it's livings.

People who had the common goals, be it the religions, the workplaces, to be in the corporate ladders. I am still at the bottom, be it at the workplaces, religions.

Flea Market

We set up our own booths. Do we have financial intelligence? I am going to read up more. What could I have done to be better in these booths set-ups. Could I solve the issues? Is there any thing I could do on the products. Bookmarks, Notespad? The rules not to get the loss but to actually create incomes out of passions. How should I work for the process so that I can gain some incomes?

Continuously I work for two days on the weekends basics. Would I actually be able to work continuously three days from morning 10am till 1plus? Or even three different working places to work in a week. 

oh lantern festival is coming. I should arrange and gather friends together.

I am going to read up on books to develop myself.
I read a newspaper articles on copyright has role in promoting creativity.
Are creative people motivated by economic incentives to create new works of literature, it would be wrong to think that copyright has no role in promoting creativity today. Do any products have to suit the market needs, be it the music, arts, food, writings too? Also to think of the costings too. who could be my good friends:P I think it would be my books, music, arts , food ;P Time to focus on tomorrow:P
Supposedly I have to go for some lessons teachings. However, I feel sleepy. Also, How would I be better in self-disclipines :P

Dilemma

Sometimes, I feel neglected y this world and being push around.Probably I should have forge a better bonds with people. I don't seem get lots of help.The only help I could get is from old friends. I just wish to expand my lifes , besides knowing religions people. I like to know people in the interests groups, singing, baking, or others.The only way to establish more friendships is to equip yourself with skills, only way to survive with a country here. I don't wish to be stuck with the little social skills I got.
Maybe I wish to know more buddies friends.i have being working quite a while.Really hope to have more colleagues friends.
Is it a good decisions to work in the army forces, army careers? I feel that it might not be a bad choice.I hope my health can endure and I wouldn't need to care about others stuffs for these two years. If I really hope to venture in others fields,arts, businesses? The only thing I could do was to put it in the evenings.
Have I unlock the soul in my heart? I wished to understand too. I wished to be a welcoming person too that people found it interesting to be with.
Being a coordinator, a middle person is not an easy task. I got to pick up, not being pushed around. I got to do my own stuffs too. I also wish I could do handicrafts the whole packaging.I want to care my well-beings rather than put others first before me.Why should I help when I couldn't really help myself.?

Lets Never stop falling in love

I wish a falling star could fall forever
And sparkle through the clouds and stormy weather
And in the darkness of the night
The star would shine a glimmering light
And hover above our love

Please hold me close and whisper that you love me
And promise that your dreams are only of me
When you are near, everything?s clear
Earth is a beautiful heaven
Always I hope that we follow the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can?t fall forever
But let?s never stop falling in love

When you are near, everything?s clear
Earth is a beautiful heaven
Always I hope that we shine like the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can?t fall forever
And let?s never stop falling in love
No let?s never stop falling in love

Soul Mate

Sometimes, I wonder and think. I knew certain places I should not have gone to. Why would fate allow me to be in this situations? I mean I am learning about taking care of my health. I don't expect to be caught in a dilemma state. I mean I would hope to not to go to the further state. That the past generations have gone through. They encountered people of certain industries acted on certain behaviours.
Environments changed a person's mindsets and the way the people speak after they have their reflections of speech done.However, the good thing about this environments are the people are postive. You can feel the positive energies in there. It still give hopes to people who are still struggling to meet its ends in life. The people from another places I encountered actually seem agressive in their selling strategies. I received personal posts. Oh well, Will I become one of them one day once I actually carry on doing certain stuffs. Who should I put close to and be trusted? The quiet ones or the talkatives ones. I have understand others environments would not be as aggressive as it seems.
The people listen to their leaders and not act upon things the leaders did not mentioned them not to do. competitions are still there afterall, we could have been sitting besides each others. I acknowledge the person's presences, the others parties doesn't acknowledges my presences as the others parties have been listening attentively to the talks. I knew the person have been eyes peeking on my notes? Have I becoming that sensitive. I knew my instincts work this way. Have people becomes that selfish to guard theirselves and not even exchanges the numbers due not to invite any inconveniences. Well, I see it as a respect earn and also feel a sense of coldness and sweat coming out. Afterall, business still have its business policies. Be it in schools, in work, in religions,  Everyone strikes to bring out their best performances and results. They wish to be able to secure a place, a recognition, a postion in the corporate ladders industries.
When I understand the things that it works. I felt that life is still practical afterall. People came to you only they are looking somethings in you. They would not pick up your calls. in the first place, I am providing them a resouce, then I have to abide to their requests. Don't you think that I don't have a power to say NO to them. I wish the teamspirits will be there. However, I think likewise now. I groom on myself first. Who want to care about the others parties and give the time to them?Only we have the same common goals or our interests are met. Only the time spent together in an activity, then the person would talk to you and discuss your issues. what kinda of attitudes is this? These people are independent in their thoughts and the things they hope to project out to their customers. Fine, I would care much on my own growth developments in the stuffs I hope to come out too. Nah, I shouldn't be sentimentals afterall.
 I mean one would ask you on certain places they wanted to learn their skills, for them to have the same business mindsets. However, once these fufillments are met, they would still part on and continue to their main journeys in life. Then it just leave me there to ponder, why in the first place I bother and have to provide for them. Probably, All that goes around comes around. I might wish people would also provide me a hand, like open the key to the things I hope to know. I found that this had been a year that I take and give at the same time. People gave me comments after they see my posts on certain topics. It could be good as someone share their ideas with me.
For people to give me comments after seeing my posts, I am inviting people to start a conversation though I do not know the person's age.  They are strangers.
Once seeing my posts, people would like to attend certain sessions with me, I think it can be a good start for having like minded people to join together activites. Still I got to be on my guards as I knew that I wouldn't know things that I done they would accept a not?
I should be studying but I feel putting some personal thoughts here would let me able to continue my journeys to my books.
What about between friends and strangers? Friends who know you for a few years start not to celebrate your birthdays? Or strangers who want to become your friends and know you more? Or even long lost friends hope for a reunion ;P Friends who actually attended sessions of meetings who you known for two or more years that doesn't seem to be the ones celebrating. Nah, I think every meet ups for three sessions would be enough?
After all these sayings, Do you think ladies and guys could be soul mates after all. I personally feel it doesn't exists. Cause there would lies a personal boundaries one needed to be guarded. If the opposite genders are more dominant, it seems it could control the others parties.
Here comes a post by my new known friend:
My Soul Mate of another version: Is A relationship of 2 Adults without constrain of their sexual perference. It must be played in a society of people as 2 persons marooned in an deserted island is discounted.
SM is combined into 3 tenets which each are equally strong in expression in demand and each guards its position tenaciously.
A) Physical B) Emotion... C) Mental D) Spiritual sic sublime. If either domiantes, the relationship will fail. One party only have to indicate, the other party understands without recourse of anticipation and act. Or acknowledge the expression.

Something more

Nick Vujicic (Life Without Limits)

I really hope to understand several things.I hope to give myself time to have a moment to analyse things.I don't wish to be swayed by people. Maybe I wished to be groups, with people all the time. All these while, What have I learned. I went to events after events. I just hope to know things in depths.
I meant I don't wish to lose myself in the midst of these events. This weekends had been packed with events.All the entertainments and socialisings.
I met up with my friends ;P I think I initiate the meetups. I really enjoy their companies.I guess they have been patiences.
There were ranging from IT Fair,Cosplay booths, Ndp celebrations,soccers maybe some health talks too.I actually hope to explore to miscellaneous stuffs, like soccers.
In facts, I wished to attend too. However, I wish to study and reflect, rethink.I knew for many things I got to be pushed so to be able to came up with my best state and potentials.
This book came into my mind.
Many people struggle to find meaning and direction in their lives. They question their value because they aren't clear on how they can contribute or make a mark. Maybe you haven't identified where your talents and interests lie.
"It's not uncommon to cast about trying one thing or another before identify your life's calling. Changing course several time is increasingly common.
I encourage you to identify whatever it is that fulfills you and engages all your gifts and energy. Be patient if it takes time to find your way.Knowing that timing is very important and that as long as you hold a patient in your heart, it will not fade. Understand that even passions can come with risk.
You'll know you've found a passion when talents, knowledge, energy, focus, and commitments all come together in a way that excites you like a child with a favourite game or toy. Your work and pleasure become one the same. You feel as though the opportunites are endless. What you do becomes part of who you are, and the rewards that come to you are far less satisfying than those that come to others because of you.
TIMING IS RIGHT!!! No doubt, ambition and energy have led to the creation of many great businesses and careers, but timing is critical. That's why patience is a virtue and taking a leap is a risk. I'm not opposed to risk, in fact, I pride myself on taking well-calculated risks in which I do everything possible to reduce my potential downside.
You can't expect every day to make sense . Sometimes your days are just comical. Other days are tragic. But for better or worse, in sickness and health, good or bad, it is just ridiculous that we are alive and breathing, isn't it. Life is a miracle. You and I only get one ride on shakespheare called "this mortal coil," so what will you do on yours? will you allow poor health, a bad injury or a disability, take the opportunity to make sure your priorities are in order, let those you care about know how much you love them, and strengthen your faith.

Birthday is coming

I am thinking of several factors. Sometimes I felt I have been to a paricular places about seven years.
Have people recognise me as friends, their closest friends. Whenever I felt that I hope to ask people out for birthday celebrations.Those that I just meet, they would actually show concern. I actually don't ask much on a birthday celebrations, maybe just a cake or a small gift too.
Well, I think it is better than the previous year I guess. It sounds funny I asked people around if anyone keen is interested to celebrate with me. That was like over fourty people.A bit not of my usual self, to call people to come out and celebrate my birthday.Those I have not meet for two years, they would actually remember me.The e-mails and greetings cards from clubs that I joined actually send me greetings and reminders to attend. Well, I guess after all it was not as bad or not as good as you think.
There are still some responses though. I think they will celebrate a later day.I still receive an early birthday gift too.
Well, there are still a few souls that show concern though.I appreciate the ladies than the guys. It is just that people are too buzy to reply or you are just not in their mind. It lets me think if I have did sacrifices and build inspirations and trust for people to actually think, remembered me.
Well, It might not be sufficient enough? I have done certificates for people, souveniers for my own discussions meetings. My family have bring our own home cook food there too.
I just feel that people of the higher hierachy, the corporate ladder would be remembered of.
I wished I could really be near there, though I were still at the bottom.
I need my revisions. Hope to actually sit down, think and reflect to have my own readings.I felt I got to have the mood to travel inside the another zone of readings.
 

Chalet (Downtown East)

I felt that somehow or rather I could feel that one do not have to be likened or to please anyone. I could understand the tensions or body languages of any one who trying to express or move their bodies. By keeping myself, it is just not to waste my energies only.
I could only strive to improve my skills and cultivate money. I thought there would be someone accompanying down to that place. I think I got to follow the timings. I just hope people could have accompany me to events that I hope to attend.
I read a book about "How to sell yourself"? To sharpen my image, Be impressive in any organisations. Achieve promotions.
What are my strengths? I wished to know too. Where there are people, there will be disputes. I hope to have actually sharpen my speaking skills.
I actually hope to attend the meeting. I think I lost my way somehow. So I ended up revising and to do my readings on newspapers, my book.
I wished such that I could be more well-like by people and gain recognitions. Only through building portfoilos. I wished two events too, the running and the wealth seminars talks. Hope it would come soon.
Let me have myself volunteer for the upcoming programmes which I had actually know the dates and time to attend.

Western Medical Doctor Again

I visited the medical doctor once again. I really need to do my readings and understandings. Without sufficient knowledges, one is like having a bow and a arrow. The bow string is spoilt like that. Different doctors have their own sayings. It just made me couldn't think straight right. Once obstacles is going to clear. what about the next? The western doctor mentioned if you have any sickness one should go western doctor rather than chinese doctor. I am still blur. Don't know what I am doing. I just feel helpless like even this small thing couldn't make a decision to follow which doctor and prescriptions. The doctor mentioned don't follow the health supplements products not from the pharmacy. Other products I am trying too. I think I lack of Ions. There were subcriptions like Neurobion for me, asked me go try Blackmore's, Kordel that have probiotics effects. I had these low blood pressure and I actually couldn't donate blood. I asked the doctor: Could I donate blood though I went to check for the Thats why I have others symptoms like headaches, stomach bloating and stuffs. People keep asking me to follow them. I already have no clues at all. what will they actually up to? Don't want to follow anyone, any people blindly anymore. I think all these years I kept attending activites but I lose myself among these activites too. It is the best I just go to the activites that I like or I hope to understand. Sometimes don't want to ask people along. But I got to not be too soloist. Still have to ask people together for activites. Don't know what to say but just want to be free for now. Is it due to I like freedom? Singlehood is the best. These people I encountered these years gave me so much challenges and questioning to myself. It is all about health, nutritions and good diets.

Someone just passed away today Shirui. I wonder I don't know the person. I keep hearing people mention her name. Sometimes people don't know the person but would try to ask people to chant and pray for her happiness while she was undergoing some medical treatments. This let me pondered in depth about life and death issues. Do people still care for another soul if the person have not meet that person. Are they really sincerity between people. Probably, nowadays my mindsets are more to finding opportunities to earn more income. I am really in debts, some legal cases. Also in debts of the human debts. I keep begging for help is not an issues. Thats Why HE ignores me to let me learn a lesson. Well, It doesn't matters. I actually hope to meet new people so to get over people of the closest friends I still pondered on. There were places like adventures groups, meetup singles.I keep on going social networking. probably, let me take a little break and come back to hear my inner voices.  Hope I wouldn't lose my spiritual self and also my pride and dignity. Does pride and dignity means a thing if one really is in need of earning the incomes. Yes as a human being, we still have. But life is cruel and real reality, doesn't it. The weak will continue to get bully, outcast. The strong and the richer will get richest. Can't these powerful people with statuses and high level of education bring me up to the level of ladders. So at least I feed myself, provide income for my family members too. Also to have more incomes to do the stuffs I could enjoy. Also to be able to gain recognition as a citizen here. This let me wonder my close friend April Foo. How have you been doing? You stop letting me contact you. Sometime you would reply my messages but not most of the time. I missed you. I were not scary. It is just that sometimes I were too close with anyone, be it ladies or guys. I just would feel that I were in love with the person, maybe a lady. It is just an assumptions but may not be a YES. Do I like both genders? This is for me to know. Can't my friends treat me better? Still remembered me :) Let me forget these people and bother about the things I hope to do to enjoy.

I were still unhappy nor satisfied. That makes me hope to gain back my Identity. I still have my different projects need to do. I just hope my sibilings would follow me to the activites I joined or gives me moral supports. It is not most of the time they would come and give me moral support. Everyone had their own life style they would like to achieve. We couldn't actually tied any one of your close kin by your side anymore.

Arts and Crafts Booths /Games Plannings /Ndp

Finally My Ndp trainings had just ended. I felt I did all the movements perfectly. I saw the performances and it was really magic, sharp and precise. I felt that all the trainers were great as they were concerned about me though they were not my group trainer.I have to really sit down, have some time for me to plan. What have I been doing? I try to find some cool places to relax myself. It ends up getting new experiences, another lifestyles. I don't think my health can withstand. Still sometimes, I would like to go there. Maybe a place where you don't know anyone. It would be a place you can release yourself and relax, dances around the ground like no one is at the dance floor.

I really wish to be able to contribute in my games plannings. I have not try out but I learnt a few from my seniors in the plannings. I have to know if I were to get the games carried out in props or without props.

Also, one would need to know the items to use.

I got to know the items to prepare for a booth set ups. I wished to know the items would be on sale. What would my products be?

I hope to know about my time managements for each tasks. I could actually be the soloist. There was one boss, I felt he appreciated my efforts. I actually can start my orderings using the system. I didn't work there very long. I felt great as I can see myself handling things alone. I got to train myself to be able to do a lot of stuffs. I wish to be more decisive and more independent. I need to know or to figure out even if no one by my side, be it my friends or my family members.

I wish more income to grow. My bosses hope I could follow them in the stuffs they do, so I could grow income more to my pockets. I wish I could but I really lack in some stuffs. I wish to know to do proposals with a good presenations skills. haha... what kind of proposals?To get back together proposals or to propose to be together.It is just kidding. If I had that kind of skills, also not bad. Too bad, Did I meet any of their standards. I don't wish to feel that if the person were with me or without me, also doesn't matters to the person. Then why waste time? It is just a moment of foolishness :( Wouldn't they appreciate my existances and my worth. I WERE A GEM that through time and polish. I could SHINE too. Makes me feel like I were a sparkling diamond or even a long lasting fireworks. I wished to be respected, to be honoured, to bring glory to myself and family. I wouldn't and don't wish to know the reasons anymore. Relationships like don't have a definite answers at all. Sometimes it is a up flow chart, another time is a flat tune.

My birthday is coming.I wonder the people that noticed it and celebrate with me.

Soups & Rice

 This is the soup that had the Sliced Cube Hams, Sliced Bacons, Carrots, Potatoes, Corns, Onions.

This is the Soup that have green beans and tropical insides it.

I ate some food cooked by a lady (Zhn Ying). I saw the preparations of the food.

1. The brand name that used for the preparations of the yam cooked rice food is Kikkoman special fragrance soy sauce.
2. Sunlight brand pure fragrance soy sesame.
3. Fine Salt. Put the meat first (3 Cheng Rou) If it is Pork or Chicken, Up to an individual.
4. Put the onions olive oil. Seperate the onions first.
5. Put the Yam in.
6. When you finished the cooking, one could spray the onions in.

Dendrobium where happiness starts from within (2010 edition)

I talked to some of my sports club friend. I learned something. Everything is about FOCUS. I had a short conversation with the person.It wasn't easy for the person to travel back and forth from Singapore. The person spirit was strong, just like towards his passion for product design and also his passion for his religions views. I wouldn't comment on any side I were in. I could say just that to have friends that have same topics of conversations was good.His inspirations came when he was focused and devoted to his own religions.When I heard his phrases, I really wished to know more about typography and packaging design too.  Actions = Results :)

Oh Boy.
Sunrises with bright hopes
Sun sets with radiant colours
Shadows of Silohuttes
Sinking into deep thoughts

A short story had ended with a closing that no one bothers about no happy endings or even a story that caught you unprepared.Thats how I should see things weren't that as simple as you thought.
I heard stories about people you encountered, that people imparted some knowledge or lessons for you to learn. The next moment, the person just disappeared in your life.It would be better that way.I don't understand at all too. Were each our encounters that way? Couldn't each partings be a memorable one and not ended up in bitterness? Do people remember things deep in their hearts, only there were a strong impart or strong blow to them.I hope to avoid these kind of situations in future.
It is another world that I seem don't understand but somehow understand. It is about compromising, satisfaction.
Another chapter of story to begin. Seeking for the people out there for companionship, common goals or to fill my life with more colours, surprises or even disappointments.The human of wonderous that one could do.

How would the happenings events filled one's and another life for each others to take away and to learn too.

It is everyday happening events.I weren't capable of holding the person, be it my best friend or a close friend. The only thing I need to learnt is to let go of things or person fast. it is Just like a split second or a magic wand that tap in the sky.You would feel not a thing or move into another planet.I really felt haven't done a capable part as a student, an employee, a daughter or even a sweetheart, a planner, an example to the juniors.Don't someone feel my existances meant something deeply or an important impact to them.I wish to know how my worth is to them. Yeah, I learnt a silly hard way. I wished not that to happen anymore. I felt I got to be more capable and develop out my strongest qualities out. I were quite forgettful at times. who knows I might not know the person the next day. That would be great? Then I would not need to remember the unpleasant moments. Please guide me to the desires destinations I could be at.This coming week had some happening events. I were tired, not sure if I should take up. It would be family day, collections of gifts, passing items or any gifts you hope to give.

There were also entertainment like game booths, singing sessions. Even there were many activites up, I would just hope to really complete my assignments at hand.I kept delaying.

I need to read on my own. I read several topics.This month was tight and tough for my planning. I felt weary in decisions makings.I weren't satisfied. I had no ideas what would come next week.I meant some decisions to make on selections of topics.

I try to find some stuffs to read randomly. I felt I missed out some of the parenting skills that I should have learnt from my seniors. Those parenting skills I could passed down to the juniors.

I am handling one of my closest kin. I found another perfectionist that I were trying to handle.He was like too organised where I felt that certain invinsible rules had to be follow again.

Ten Tips on Effective Parentings

1. Believe in the goodness each individual: Show me how you can be more gentle with your brother.

2. Dont pass on that negatively, overcome ill effects of words.
3. Be firm, kind and consistent: Teach the person about maintaining the limits he or she can do before implying more for the person.
4. Show appreciation for positive behaviour : Encouraged them once they complete an action.
5. Honour your child's impulse, then set the limit. Honour a person impulse to be one to be alone. "I know you didn't want him to take your toy, but I need you to be safe." Lets' be gentle with our friends. This is the phrase I hope my friends would treat me too. I met too tough people and rough people.I just felt that I were touched by their actions. However, I were being "violated" in their rough actions. I hope they were out there to amuse me but I didn't see it that way.
6. Use "when, then" statements instead of "do it, or else" statements. "When you put your books away, then we can play more games."
7. Use postive statements instead of "don't statements.
"Put your plates on the tableswhen you're done," as you put your dishes on the counter.
8. Learn about your child's individual temperament.
9. Establish values that suit your family.
10. Learn more about children and parenting. Have I followed the orders and instructions closely?
Faith into Action: "Neither orders, authority nor threats can unite a family.
IT IS LOVE, HARMONY AND CONSIDERATION THAT BINDS ITS MEMBERS TO ONE ANOTHER. In a family, there is no particular need for a hero. What is needed is a strong father who can protect everyone and a mother who is impartial, fair and kind."

My Books Reading Time

Once again, I were sleepy too. I went to see another chinese doctor. There it goes my medical expenses increases at the start of the August. I would really have to start to read up on the policies of certain things.I spent 100 over plus, nearly till $200 for the chinese doctor. The doctor diagnosis was the same as the previous chinese doctor.I hope to have time on my own to do my reading. I targetted myself to exercise at least once daily.

Were I going to missed the NDP video Session? Should I go there? My instincts told me I should just attend? I do wished to give myself time to do my readings and stuffs. I were caught up in the middle.I just want to have my own time for myself.

I just hope to sort out my priorities clearly. I wanted to get some clear time management. Hence I went to borrow a series of books.

1. Perfect Phrases for dealing with difficult situations at work.
2. Time Management
3. Social Marketing
4. How to get things done without trying too hard?
5. Xian Dai Yi Shu, Zen Me Yi Hui Shi
6. Love and Lust in Singapore: 24 Short Stories that happened in Singapore

Struggles

I receive a good news and a bad one. The most struggles I think was with health. Health is Wealth. I knew my liver had not been good. My body circulation weren't that circulate well. Thats why I had headaches and flu together, plus stomach crump.I couldn't remember certain things that had just happened. I were still trying to recall though.There were certain informations that that I left out. I were still struggling with learning social medias, struggling in studies and also with work too. Sometimes I were disappointed with people. Though there were a few handful close friends always by my side during my down moments. I feel like going to events which I would feel unsure if I could attend. I would hope to meet people , make new friends too. I felt left out on my progression. I would like to try to apply the techniques I learnt before and to actually to recap. My head is heavy and I dont understand. I just hope to ask people to solve the issues. Sometimes I rather meditate. I couldn't get a MC, cause I rather went to chinese medical doctor. Western medical doctor, I went to see two weeks back. My pay get deducted too. I should have try to understand the rules and regulations of the procedures. It is all right. I will try to see the positive sides of life once again.

My Books Reading

Fire Fish: Davy Liu
Sarai Raa On and Sesom embark on a dangerous trip trip to find their hearts desires.

The biggest and smartest fish always swam in the Fin Race. But only the fastest were quick enough to catch the sweet lovely-food that came at sunrise.

Could one be the steady swimmers???

The Royal Feast: Davy Liu
Belt admired Nebu and finally got up the nerve to ask him, " why do you want a mane like mine?" Nebu wondered.

It left me keep thinking how to be as confident to be a good followers and learn. Will they keep me to polish me up till I blossom or being nurtured to be able to stand firm and strong, also to have friends going together with me the same goals and directions.

"I want to be a real lion." Belt stuck out his chest, "Strong and powerful!Then I'm going back to the prairie and show those mohawks who's in charge!"Grow your characters first. Then you can grow a mane."

how should i grow my characters?Let me find my way out here?

Should i join tmr?I want my own time. It would be for my own readings, own revisions, focus on building future careers not jobs. I wouldn't rely on a relationship with friends to make me feel good or secure anymore. I wouldn't need to see a need to be in love anymore. All I care is my own life. No one cares so much about the next individual. They only care about the things you could assist or provide them. Have you really understand me or willing to go this path with me. You all were just disappeared and gone, as if nothing had happened. All the time spent were just memories to be kept. My brain need to be bleach so I could upload my brain to a mac book version with new memories up. Could I even cry and say if I were Sorry or were in pain? Would you even lift me up or shed a tear if you knew I would have troubles one day. If I call you one day, would you pick up my phone once again. Some care and would just put you in their prayers. Some just left. So As we walk, as we walk all night, with the heels and toes, new friends to be found.

It wouldn't help. It shows that I would be fine doing and going to different organizations on my own, sports,a team night cycling, rock climbing, adventure activites, wealth managements without accompany of people at times. Were I that Cool?I knew I were, funny and cute. I just learnt to be in different kinds of races and groups. cause people were sometimes a hazard to me.

I am excited to read up a small script for a session. What will it talk about tmr again.

One more places in mid August 3 days events of seminars to attend (15,16,17) ?Could i run on one of these day too. Hope to ask a person in mind.

There will be a overseas outings in September. I would be embarking in the service line once again. I got to do my practise. Several life test is coming next week, August.

I love freedom, wthout the control by anyone, family members or even a close friend, be it a guy or a girl. Or even people upholdong leaderships in the religions. Still I must learn to listen and follow, and wouldn't go wrong. Tidyness is what I hope to seek in my life, as a portion of my spring cleaning, to refersh my mind. Things I ought to do, cannot do, can say, can't say, like a taboo. I would put my ideas into a document form.

There were goals in my minds nowadays to keep me moving. Life still goes on anyway.