Something more

Nick Vujicic (Life Without Limits)

I really hope to understand several things.I hope to give myself time to have a moment to analyse things.I don't wish to be swayed by people. Maybe I wished to be groups, with people all the time. All these while, What have I learned. I went to events after events. I just hope to know things in depths.
I meant I don't wish to lose myself in the midst of these events. This weekends had been packed with events.All the entertainments and socialisings.
I met up with my friends ;P I think I initiate the meetups. I really enjoy their companies.I guess they have been patiences.
There were ranging from IT Fair,Cosplay booths, Ndp celebrations,soccers maybe some health talks too.I actually hope to explore to miscellaneous stuffs, like soccers.
In facts, I wished to attend too. However, I wish to study and reflect, rethink.I knew for many things I got to be pushed so to be able to came up with my best state and potentials.
This book came into my mind.
Many people struggle to find meaning and direction in their lives. They question their value because they aren't clear on how they can contribute or make a mark. Maybe you haven't identified where your talents and interests lie.
"It's not uncommon to cast about trying one thing or another before identify your life's calling. Changing course several time is increasingly common.
I encourage you to identify whatever it is that fulfills you and engages all your gifts and energy. Be patient if it takes time to find your way.Knowing that timing is very important and that as long as you hold a patient in your heart, it will not fade. Understand that even passions can come with risk.
You'll know you've found a passion when talents, knowledge, energy, focus, and commitments all come together in a way that excites you like a child with a favourite game or toy. Your work and pleasure become one the same. You feel as though the opportunites are endless. What you do becomes part of who you are, and the rewards that come to you are far less satisfying than those that come to others because of you.
TIMING IS RIGHT!!! No doubt, ambition and energy have led to the creation of many great businesses and careers, but timing is critical. That's why patience is a virtue and taking a leap is a risk. I'm not opposed to risk, in fact, I pride myself on taking well-calculated risks in which I do everything possible to reduce my potential downside.
You can't expect every day to make sense . Sometimes your days are just comical. Other days are tragic. But for better or worse, in sickness and health, good or bad, it is just ridiculous that we are alive and breathing, isn't it. Life is a miracle. You and I only get one ride on shakespheare called "this mortal coil," so what will you do on yours? will you allow poor health, a bad injury or a disability, take the opportunity to make sure your priorities are in order, let those you care about know how much you love them, and strengthen your faith.

Birthday is coming

I am thinking of several factors. Sometimes I felt I have been to a paricular places about seven years.
Have people recognise me as friends, their closest friends. Whenever I felt that I hope to ask people out for birthday celebrations.Those that I just meet, they would actually show concern. I actually don't ask much on a birthday celebrations, maybe just a cake or a small gift too.
Well, I think it is better than the previous year I guess. It sounds funny I asked people around if anyone keen is interested to celebrate with me. That was like over fourty people.A bit not of my usual self, to call people to come out and celebrate my birthday.Those I have not meet for two years, they would actually remember me.The e-mails and greetings cards from clubs that I joined actually send me greetings and reminders to attend. Well, I guess after all it was not as bad or not as good as you think.
There are still some responses though. I think they will celebrate a later day.I still receive an early birthday gift too.
Well, there are still a few souls that show concern though.I appreciate the ladies than the guys. It is just that people are too buzy to reply or you are just not in their mind. It lets me think if I have did sacrifices and build inspirations and trust for people to actually think, remembered me.
Well, It might not be sufficient enough? I have done certificates for people, souveniers for my own discussions meetings. My family have bring our own home cook food there too.
I just feel that people of the higher hierachy, the corporate ladder would be remembered of.
I wished I could really be near there, though I were still at the bottom.
I need my revisions. Hope to actually sit down, think and reflect to have my own readings.I felt I got to have the mood to travel inside the another zone of readings.
 

Chalet (Downtown East)

I felt that somehow or rather I could feel that one do not have to be likened or to please anyone. I could understand the tensions or body languages of any one who trying to express or move their bodies. By keeping myself, it is just not to waste my energies only.
I could only strive to improve my skills and cultivate money. I thought there would be someone accompanying down to that place. I think I got to follow the timings. I just hope people could have accompany me to events that I hope to attend.
I read a book about "How to sell yourself"? To sharpen my image, Be impressive in any organisations. Achieve promotions.
What are my strengths? I wished to know too. Where there are people, there will be disputes. I hope to have actually sharpen my speaking skills.
I actually hope to attend the meeting. I think I lost my way somehow. So I ended up revising and to do my readings on newspapers, my book.
I wished such that I could be more well-like by people and gain recognitions. Only through building portfoilos. I wished two events too, the running and the wealth seminars talks. Hope it would come soon.
Let me have myself volunteer for the upcoming programmes which I had actually know the dates and time to attend.

Western Medical Doctor Again

I visited the medical doctor once again. I really need to do my readings and understandings. Without sufficient knowledges, one is like having a bow and a arrow. The bow string is spoilt like that. Different doctors have their own sayings. It just made me couldn't think straight right. Once obstacles is going to clear. what about the next? The western doctor mentioned if you have any sickness one should go western doctor rather than chinese doctor. I am still blur. Don't know what I am doing. I just feel helpless like even this small thing couldn't make a decision to follow which doctor and prescriptions. The doctor mentioned don't follow the health supplements products not from the pharmacy. Other products I am trying too. I think I lack of Ions. There were subcriptions like Neurobion for me, asked me go try Blackmore's, Kordel that have probiotics effects. I had these low blood pressure and I actually couldn't donate blood. I asked the doctor: Could I donate blood though I went to check for the Thats why I have others symptoms like headaches, stomach bloating and stuffs. People keep asking me to follow them. I already have no clues at all. what will they actually up to? Don't want to follow anyone, any people blindly anymore. I think all these years I kept attending activites but I lose myself among these activites too. It is the best I just go to the activites that I like or I hope to understand. Sometimes don't want to ask people along. But I got to not be too soloist. Still have to ask people together for activites. Don't know what to say but just want to be free for now. Is it due to I like freedom? Singlehood is the best. These people I encountered these years gave me so much challenges and questioning to myself. It is all about health, nutritions and good diets.

Someone just passed away today Shirui. I wonder I don't know the person. I keep hearing people mention her name. Sometimes people don't know the person but would try to ask people to chant and pray for her happiness while she was undergoing some medical treatments. This let me pondered in depth about life and death issues. Do people still care for another soul if the person have not meet that person. Are they really sincerity between people. Probably, nowadays my mindsets are more to finding opportunities to earn more income. I am really in debts, some legal cases. Also in debts of the human debts. I keep begging for help is not an issues. Thats Why HE ignores me to let me learn a lesson. Well, It doesn't matters. I actually hope to meet new people so to get over people of the closest friends I still pondered on. There were places like adventures groups, meetup singles.I keep on going social networking. probably, let me take a little break and come back to hear my inner voices.  Hope I wouldn't lose my spiritual self and also my pride and dignity. Does pride and dignity means a thing if one really is in need of earning the incomes. Yes as a human being, we still have. But life is cruel and real reality, doesn't it. The weak will continue to get bully, outcast. The strong and the richer will get richest. Can't these powerful people with statuses and high level of education bring me up to the level of ladders. So at least I feed myself, provide income for my family members too. Also to have more incomes to do the stuffs I could enjoy. Also to be able to gain recognition as a citizen here. This let me wonder my close friend April Foo. How have you been doing? You stop letting me contact you. Sometime you would reply my messages but not most of the time. I missed you. I were not scary. It is just that sometimes I were too close with anyone, be it ladies or guys. I just would feel that I were in love with the person, maybe a lady. It is just an assumptions but may not be a YES. Do I like both genders? This is for me to know. Can't my friends treat me better? Still remembered me :) Let me forget these people and bother about the things I hope to do to enjoy.

I were still unhappy nor satisfied. That makes me hope to gain back my Identity. I still have my different projects need to do. I just hope my sibilings would follow me to the activites I joined or gives me moral supports. It is not most of the time they would come and give me moral support. Everyone had their own life style they would like to achieve. We couldn't actually tied any one of your close kin by your side anymore.

Arts and Crafts Booths /Games Plannings /Ndp

Finally My Ndp trainings had just ended. I felt I did all the movements perfectly. I saw the performances and it was really magic, sharp and precise. I felt that all the trainers were great as they were concerned about me though they were not my group trainer.I have to really sit down, have some time for me to plan. What have I been doing? I try to find some cool places to relax myself. It ends up getting new experiences, another lifestyles. I don't think my health can withstand. Still sometimes, I would like to go there. Maybe a place where you don't know anyone. It would be a place you can release yourself and relax, dances around the ground like no one is at the dance floor.

I really wish to be able to contribute in my games plannings. I have not try out but I learnt a few from my seniors in the plannings. I have to know if I were to get the games carried out in props or without props.

Also, one would need to know the items to use.

I got to know the items to prepare for a booth set ups. I wished to know the items would be on sale. What would my products be?

I hope to know about my time managements for each tasks. I could actually be the soloist. There was one boss, I felt he appreciated my efforts. I actually can start my orderings using the system. I didn't work there very long. I felt great as I can see myself handling things alone. I got to train myself to be able to do a lot of stuffs. I wish to be more decisive and more independent. I need to know or to figure out even if no one by my side, be it my friends or my family members.

I wish more income to grow. My bosses hope I could follow them in the stuffs they do, so I could grow income more to my pockets. I wish I could but I really lack in some stuffs. I wish to know to do proposals with a good presenations skills. haha... what kind of proposals?To get back together proposals or to propose to be together.It is just kidding. If I had that kind of skills, also not bad. Too bad, Did I meet any of their standards. I don't wish to feel that if the person were with me or without me, also doesn't matters to the person. Then why waste time? It is just a moment of foolishness :( Wouldn't they appreciate my existances and my worth. I WERE A GEM that through time and polish. I could SHINE too. Makes me feel like I were a sparkling diamond or even a long lasting fireworks. I wished to be respected, to be honoured, to bring glory to myself and family. I wouldn't and don't wish to know the reasons anymore. Relationships like don't have a definite answers at all. Sometimes it is a up flow chart, another time is a flat tune.

My birthday is coming.I wonder the people that noticed it and celebrate with me.

Soups & Rice

 This is the soup that had the Sliced Cube Hams, Sliced Bacons, Carrots, Potatoes, Corns, Onions.

This is the Soup that have green beans and tropical insides it.

I ate some food cooked by a lady (Zhn Ying). I saw the preparations of the food.

1. The brand name that used for the preparations of the yam cooked rice food is Kikkoman special fragrance soy sauce.
2. Sunlight brand pure fragrance soy sesame.
3. Fine Salt. Put the meat first (3 Cheng Rou) If it is Pork or Chicken, Up to an individual.
4. Put the onions olive oil. Seperate the onions first.
5. Put the Yam in.
6. When you finished the cooking, one could spray the onions in.

Dendrobium where happiness starts from within (2010 edition)

I talked to some of my sports club friend. I learned something. Everything is about FOCUS. I had a short conversation with the person.It wasn't easy for the person to travel back and forth from Singapore. The person spirit was strong, just like towards his passion for product design and also his passion for his religions views. I wouldn't comment on any side I were in. I could say just that to have friends that have same topics of conversations was good.His inspirations came when he was focused and devoted to his own religions.When I heard his phrases, I really wished to know more about typography and packaging design too.  Actions = Results :)

Oh Boy.
Sunrises with bright hopes
Sun sets with radiant colours
Shadows of Silohuttes
Sinking into deep thoughts

A short story had ended with a closing that no one bothers about no happy endings or even a story that caught you unprepared.Thats how I should see things weren't that as simple as you thought.
I heard stories about people you encountered, that people imparted some knowledge or lessons for you to learn. The next moment, the person just disappeared in your life.It would be better that way.I don't understand at all too. Were each our encounters that way? Couldn't each partings be a memorable one and not ended up in bitterness? Do people remember things deep in their hearts, only there were a strong impart or strong blow to them.I hope to avoid these kind of situations in future.
It is another world that I seem don't understand but somehow understand. It is about compromising, satisfaction.
Another chapter of story to begin. Seeking for the people out there for companionship, common goals or to fill my life with more colours, surprises or even disappointments.The human of wonderous that one could do.

How would the happenings events filled one's and another life for each others to take away and to learn too.

It is everyday happening events.I weren't capable of holding the person, be it my best friend or a close friend. The only thing I need to learnt is to let go of things or person fast. it is Just like a split second or a magic wand that tap in the sky.You would feel not a thing or move into another planet.I really felt haven't done a capable part as a student, an employee, a daughter or even a sweetheart, a planner, an example to the juniors.Don't someone feel my existances meant something deeply or an important impact to them.I wish to know how my worth is to them. Yeah, I learnt a silly hard way. I wished not that to happen anymore. I felt I got to be more capable and develop out my strongest qualities out. I were quite forgettful at times. who knows I might not know the person the next day. That would be great? Then I would not need to remember the unpleasant moments. Please guide me to the desires destinations I could be at.This coming week had some happening events. I were tired, not sure if I should take up. It would be family day, collections of gifts, passing items or any gifts you hope to give.

There were also entertainment like game booths, singing sessions. Even there were many activites up, I would just hope to really complete my assignments at hand.I kept delaying.

I need to read on my own. I read several topics.This month was tight and tough for my planning. I felt weary in decisions makings.I weren't satisfied. I had no ideas what would come next week.I meant some decisions to make on selections of topics.

I try to find some stuffs to read randomly. I felt I missed out some of the parenting skills that I should have learnt from my seniors. Those parenting skills I could passed down to the juniors.

I am handling one of my closest kin. I found another perfectionist that I were trying to handle.He was like too organised where I felt that certain invinsible rules had to be follow again.

Ten Tips on Effective Parentings

1. Believe in the goodness each individual: Show me how you can be more gentle with your brother.

2. Dont pass on that negatively, overcome ill effects of words.
3. Be firm, kind and consistent: Teach the person about maintaining the limits he or she can do before implying more for the person.
4. Show appreciation for positive behaviour : Encouraged them once they complete an action.
5. Honour your child's impulse, then set the limit. Honour a person impulse to be one to be alone. "I know you didn't want him to take your toy, but I need you to be safe." Lets' be gentle with our friends. This is the phrase I hope my friends would treat me too. I met too tough people and rough people.I just felt that I were touched by their actions. However, I were being "violated" in their rough actions. I hope they were out there to amuse me but I didn't see it that way.
6. Use "when, then" statements instead of "do it, or else" statements. "When you put your books away, then we can play more games."
7. Use postive statements instead of "don't statements.
"Put your plates on the tableswhen you're done," as you put your dishes on the counter.
8. Learn about your child's individual temperament.
9. Establish values that suit your family.
10. Learn more about children and parenting. Have I followed the orders and instructions closely?
Faith into Action: "Neither orders, authority nor threats can unite a family.
IT IS LOVE, HARMONY AND CONSIDERATION THAT BINDS ITS MEMBERS TO ONE ANOTHER. In a family, there is no particular need for a hero. What is needed is a strong father who can protect everyone and a mother who is impartial, fair and kind."

My Books Reading Time

Once again, I were sleepy too. I went to see another chinese doctor. There it goes my medical expenses increases at the start of the August. I would really have to start to read up on the policies of certain things.I spent 100 over plus, nearly till $200 for the chinese doctor. The doctor diagnosis was the same as the previous chinese doctor.I hope to have time on my own to do my reading. I targetted myself to exercise at least once daily.

Were I going to missed the NDP video Session? Should I go there? My instincts told me I should just attend? I do wished to give myself time to do my readings and stuffs. I were caught up in the middle.I just want to have my own time for myself.

I just hope to sort out my priorities clearly. I wanted to get some clear time management. Hence I went to borrow a series of books.

1. Perfect Phrases for dealing with difficult situations at work.
2. Time Management
3. Social Marketing
4. How to get things done without trying too hard?
5. Xian Dai Yi Shu, Zen Me Yi Hui Shi
6. Love and Lust in Singapore: 24 Short Stories that happened in Singapore

Struggles

I receive a good news and a bad one. The most struggles I think was with health. Health is Wealth. I knew my liver had not been good. My body circulation weren't that circulate well. Thats why I had headaches and flu together, plus stomach crump.I couldn't remember certain things that had just happened. I were still trying to recall though.There were certain informations that that I left out. I were still struggling with learning social medias, struggling in studies and also with work too. Sometimes I were disappointed with people. Though there were a few handful close friends always by my side during my down moments. I feel like going to events which I would feel unsure if I could attend. I would hope to meet people , make new friends too. I felt left out on my progression. I would like to try to apply the techniques I learnt before and to actually to recap. My head is heavy and I dont understand. I just hope to ask people to solve the issues. Sometimes I rather meditate. I couldn't get a MC, cause I rather went to chinese medical doctor. Western medical doctor, I went to see two weeks back. My pay get deducted too. I should have try to understand the rules and regulations of the procedures. It is all right. I will try to see the positive sides of life once again.

My Books Reading

Fire Fish: Davy Liu
Sarai Raa On and Sesom embark on a dangerous trip trip to find their hearts desires.

The biggest and smartest fish always swam in the Fin Race. But only the fastest were quick enough to catch the sweet lovely-food that came at sunrise.

Could one be the steady swimmers???

The Royal Feast: Davy Liu
Belt admired Nebu and finally got up the nerve to ask him, " why do you want a mane like mine?" Nebu wondered.

It left me keep thinking how to be as confident to be a good followers and learn. Will they keep me to polish me up till I blossom or being nurtured to be able to stand firm and strong, also to have friends going together with me the same goals and directions.

"I want to be a real lion." Belt stuck out his chest, "Strong and powerful!Then I'm going back to the prairie and show those mohawks who's in charge!"Grow your characters first. Then you can grow a mane."

how should i grow my characters?Let me find my way out here?

Should i join tmr?I want my own time. It would be for my own readings, own revisions, focus on building future careers not jobs. I wouldn't rely on a relationship with friends to make me feel good or secure anymore. I wouldn't need to see a need to be in love anymore. All I care is my own life. No one cares so much about the next individual. They only care about the things you could assist or provide them. Have you really understand me or willing to go this path with me. You all were just disappeared and gone, as if nothing had happened. All the time spent were just memories to be kept. My brain need to be bleach so I could upload my brain to a mac book version with new memories up. Could I even cry and say if I were Sorry or were in pain? Would you even lift me up or shed a tear if you knew I would have troubles one day. If I call you one day, would you pick up my phone once again. Some care and would just put you in their prayers. Some just left. So As we walk, as we walk all night, with the heels and toes, new friends to be found.

It wouldn't help. It shows that I would be fine doing and going to different organizations on my own, sports,a team night cycling, rock climbing, adventure activites, wealth managements without accompany of people at times. Were I that Cool?I knew I were, funny and cute. I just learnt to be in different kinds of races and groups. cause people were sometimes a hazard to me.

I am excited to read up a small script for a session. What will it talk about tmr again.

One more places in mid August 3 days events of seminars to attend (15,16,17) ?Could i run on one of these day too. Hope to ask a person in mind.

There will be a overseas outings in September. I would be embarking in the service line once again. I got to do my practise. Several life test is coming next week, August.

I love freedom, wthout the control by anyone, family members or even a close friend, be it a guy or a girl. Or even people upholdong leaderships in the religions. Still I must learn to listen and follow, and wouldn't go wrong. Tidyness is what I hope to seek in my life, as a portion of my spring cleaning, to refersh my mind. Things I ought to do, cannot do, can say, can't say, like a taboo. I would put my ideas into a document form.

There were goals in my minds nowadays to keep me moving. Life still goes on anyway.