Due to some circumstances, I guess I were being told to go through this. I guess the first lesson it told us to let go. Things that we couldn't actually hold on to.I might or not continued till the next level. It really depends. Cause i don't wish to have continuously.Probably maybe a year and so, or later.
The person quote an analysis. If a lady got married, on got to think of the situations and circumstances. If her mum asked her to get a diamond ring, would she had done if she knew it took years for her to earn it.Probably a replacement like one to look so real, would be a better choice.
Some times to know the truth would be better or just to be hidden from it. I guess I made a decision to make a stop to it, the feelings that I got. I shouldn't believe in or the existence of irrational love or even wait. What if waiting and seemed not a result. what about fake promises or to be convinced it could be actually be realised.A month of emotional period. I guess were two people that made me carried away, in my life.
I began a retreat. I realised meditation was what I needed. I wanted time for myself, time away from the emotional distress I was going through. I thought to myself this is the peace and calmness that my soul has been longing for.
To me I were in s spiritual world, connecting with the universe of nature. I picture myself with couples birds, the one standing on the lotus, like gaining back the childhood like to enjoy being with the surroundings and not expecting any returns from the animals or even the nature.Later I see myself grew taller like a giant, higher and higher, seeing and touching the skies about me. I wonder what the lovely couples birds would do. Will they enjoying simply the companies of each others which I hope for. I suddenly imagine jack and the bean stalk. How much ladders I could have to climb to see even higher, I could get the fruitful rewards, like a surprises filled with fruits. Probably from the giant I grew even to more a fairylike who have wings, standing on the lotus who could move about, the lotus is my sources of magical charm and protections of weapons.
I saw seasons of changes, from daylike till night. From different seasons of leaves such as the red ones, the white ones, the purples ones or even the yellow ones. It let me wonders again. I should be able to pluck the flowers. However,flowers doesn't seem like flowers. It is just a form in our mind. Then we were letting go of the flowers.
I somehow seemed to like people or have connections with the people that they seem I met in a short period of time and they would have departed. So I told myself not to put my energies in them. Cause avoiding being foolish or silly would be better for both of us. Giving hope and vanishing would be good. Or there would be more to it. We wouldn't knew. Should i try to know or understand.Probably I should give it a try. It took lots of courage.
Sometimes, there were systems that I don't appreciate. what I could probably do then. I just got to listen to the commands, tolerate such that the urgents needs of people couldn't be met due to the buzyiness and tight schedules.
I got to concentrate on things I had on hand. I mean the revisions I got to go through. I got to learn to protect the team or the family I were in. Before that, I got to take more responsible in myself.
However, I guess someone asked me if i could actually worked more that close to 2 years, it would be better. I hope to receive energies and inspirations from the universe. I mean if I stay in the current one, I got to aim a bigger role. If not, is there hope I got from the stabilities I could get from my career path. I hope to be able to go overseas studies or even work in the near future.
Hence, the next planning that I hope were my friends lead me to facilitators roles, I couldn't probably relay on them. Hence I tried to come up with plans quietly. I hope to know about trainings children.I see the smiles of their faces could warmth me up, rather a dull and mundane.
Or even paths such as freelances like music, arts teachings or even the crafts makings of import and export goods. At the same time, to be a trainer.
I got to believe certain things not have certificates but got to have more guts to dare to try out the stuffs.I got to learn to be more calculative at times, an advise I got.
Eduation for knowledge. If knowledge can input one to have a better lifestyle or even more wealth off, lots of sufferings could have actually be avoided.The thirst of getting more ideas to generate it
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