I think I lost some thing that was important or  precious to me.Be it An item or even a friend. In life, heartaches or even heart breaks are just a form of learning to grow and to let go fast and get heal fast once you are hurt. Memories and scars are always there but it will fade soon once you put your energies into meaningful activites.I were just unhappy bills coming up but I didn't even attend certain sessions of treatments.Nowadays I am concern about my own survival.This word needs me to get real. It is just a reality word with people in amusement park trying to eat one's slice of cheese, be it the person's time, money or others conditions.

Let me fixed myself first before entering into others' people world. I had a day with myself reflecting.Too many thoughts on my head left me want to put them into words and short forms on a piece of paper.Too many thoughts made me have no idea of the surroundings happenings to me. People changed the environment or the environment made people. I had friends by my side for three years or some months. I knew they had tried their best to guide me. I appreciated and admire the person efforts, always trying to help me.I am touched but I can't even have an answer about myself, not even giving others an answers.

Now, I just wish to be left alone as I don't wish to be engage in any sort of stuffs or to invade into others' people's stuffs or affairs not related to myself.It would just cause me another headache.I am not interested in anyone for anyone inform. Probably I were just afraid to reply the demands from people expectations about the plans you had for future.That people had put me in with their plans with them together to look forward for a better tomorrow. Thats why I were thinking what better tomorrow can I contribute to people expectations.

Thats why I need time to read, watch videos I wish to understand. I wish to think and cultivate myself.I kept on hoping my income would increase and future aspects to be brighter. Do I look forward to meet those people who left me or I left them. I have no idea. Since I choose to leave or a form of escapism to not to face the issues.Be it with close friends, girlfriends, every things came to a compromising with one's others agreements. Yes some people had left me or people I choose to leave for my future endeavours.Some people who used to be that friendly, no longer be that friendly to you, cause I felt that there would be certain differen perpectives of ideas. Yeah there is no right or wrong in staying or leaving in one's life.