Finally My Ndp trainings had just ended. I felt I did all the movements perfectly. I saw the performances and it was really magic, sharp and precise. I felt that all the trainers were great as they were concerned about me though they were not my group trainer.I have to really sit down, have some time for me to plan. What have I been doing? I try to find some cool places to relax myself. It ends up getting new experiences, another lifestyles. I don't think my health can withstand. Still sometimes, I would like to go there. Maybe a place where you don't know anyone. It would be a place you can release yourself and relax, dances around the ground like no one is at the dance floor.
I really wish to be able to contribute in my games plannings. I have not try out but I learnt a few from my seniors in the plannings. I have to know if I were to get the games carried out in props or without props.
Also, one would need to know the items to use.
I got to know the items to prepare for a booth set ups. I wished to know the items would be on sale. What would my products be?
I hope to know about my time managements for each tasks. I could actually be the soloist. There was one boss, I felt he appreciated my efforts. I actually can start my orderings using the system. I didn't work there very long. I felt great as I can see myself handling things alone. I got to train myself to be able to do a lot of stuffs. I wish to be more decisive and more independent. I need to know or to figure out even if no one by my side, be it my friends or my family members.
I wish more income to grow. My bosses hope I could follow them in the stuffs they do, so I could grow income more to my pockets. I wish I could but I really lack in some stuffs. I wish to know to do proposals with a good presenations skills. haha... what kind of proposals?To get back together proposals or to propose to be together.It is just kidding. If I had that kind of skills, also not bad. Too bad, Did I meet any of their standards. I don't wish to feel that if the person were with me or without me, also doesn't matters to the person. Then why waste time? It is just a moment of foolishness :( Wouldn't they appreciate my existances and my worth. I WERE A GEM that through time and polish. I could SHINE too. Makes me feel like I were a sparkling diamond or even a long lasting fireworks. I wished to be respected, to be honoured, to bring glory to myself and family. I wouldn't and don't wish to know the reasons anymore. Relationships like don't have a definite answers at all. Sometimes it is a up flow chart, another time is a flat tune.
My birthday is coming.I wonder the people that noticed it and celebrate with me.
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