My Ideals and Feelings

Once again, I went to visit some getai.Hoping I could enjoy some music from the chinese and dialects. However, I didn't realise that the whole shows have been postponed to the next two days. I felt disappointed. I just wish to be better in my social skills, and not live in my own world. I wish to be more concerned about people.Hope to develop on my current hobbies and make new friends along the way.
Someone advised me that I should go to new environments, different places.

It was a silly thought that I would love to explore places like gay clubs and lesbian clubs. Probably, I were trying to understand people.

I would be reading up widely for fashion stuffs these days. I think someone gave me hope that she could hand made her clothes, pants and skirts. I wish to learn such skills too. There were skirts I like and I wore them. I took and showed the designs to a tailor. There were supplies of textiles of clothes we bought in the beginning of the year. I hope to have different sides of my personalities with different styles of outfits. I felt a great feelings to show drawings and ideas to one lady and a few of my others friends.

I do wished to have finance knowledges, like accountings and even forex. 

It gave me courages to face back some past assignments which had given me for certian times. Logos design and namecards too.

My feelings are in a mess. Damn. I just feel that guys could not be trusted after all.I got a feelings I were a fool most of the times.Never mind, I would treat it as a lesson learn. I had myself to blame.Never trust anyone easily.I just feel they don't be bother with me and care about me.Give me at least three years, I would want to put concentration on myself and not on others, or even guys. I got really disappointed from last year till now.

It would be a good acknowledge to myself I couldn't handle relationships well. Then I should focused on businesses plans, events, and ideas.The excitemnents of earnings enough and reaching up to my goals let me regain my spirits once again.Though I were still unsure the greatness and beneficial results I could see.I should feel gratitudes to these three people. One of them still remember me as his friend. I realised I do have distant friends I should keep in contact with often. I am glad I gave him hope despite his own personal struggles. I saw people doing surveys. I wished to know about the markets to do flea markets.

 Also I would be looking forward to be in the classroom with friends at a music school, lee wei song.Probably I hope to observe myself to relax and be in a dancing environments, vocals singings and keyboards playings. I would find people who enjoys the presence me and my accompanies.

I were more concerned about food, multivitamins, vitamins B and black soya bean.I have been collecting articles and receipts on food.